parker

Parker, I will miss you my sweet girl. Thank you for blessing me with your soulful  and pure love. I truly believe you did exactly what God intended for you to do in your short 21 years. You crossed my path just at the right time and showed me a love that I never knew existed for me, I've been broken for many many years Parker, before you were even born. In the past year, I have had trouble with believing in God and trouble keeping my faith because everything that had been happening in my life was leaving me feeling helpless and overcome with sadness. I would cried to God over and over, why did you forget about me! Why! Damn you for forgetting about me! My mom always said, talk to God honey, he is listening, well, I felt as if he was tired of hearing from me. Just last week I begged for him to help me, I pleaded for him to please help me and to guide me.
I've learned a lot in your passing and discovered a lot too.  I have most importantly learned from your passing that you are proof that God does exist. I have felt you and God in my heart since you've passed and I believe deep down and with all of me that you were one of God's prophet sent to love everyone and especially us broken souls and Parker, I'm witness to your purpose, I will never doubt Gods love again as I look into his most beautiful angels eyes. I'm so glad God sent you Parker Lawrence and I'm so fortunate to have captured you through pictures, I have so many! We had fun didn't we, going back through the pictures has sparked a new love of photography again. Oh Parker, you have given me so much and I know that God is so proud of you, he's probably crying in joy of all the lives you touched and even this old girl, you have made me a believer. I told your dad at your visitation that I will seek God more, I was shaking and he may not have understood my words but I could tell that he knew what I was saying. 
Speaking of angels, I look at this picture and I see your heart smiling at me, I see your pureness and I especially see how much you cared about me. I see an angel that walked among us. You are and forever will be my most favorite subject. I love you so much Parker and I will see you again someday...oh and I hope they have cameras in heaven because we've got a lot more photoshoots to do. Love you.
xoxo
Robin

parker
​8.7.98 - 8.9.19